I always thought it will be great when exams are over.
Thing is when exams are over, life is never gg to slow down.
Not for one second... actually exam life is slow..
The rest of life is much more unpredictable.
True?
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Thursday, November 6, 2008
Random Ranting
I see visions so mighty
my heart doubts.
so yearning my spirit
my heart sinks.
In fear it sank.
and time passed,
my spirit shall ask,
"where life could be
should one fear not
what lies ahead.
where my heart loves
in his fullness
and the mouth would speak
what I feel
I will tremble
yet I would have
a fearless heart,
and a mighty soul.
Heaven knows
how high the heights
cowards could climb
if he fears not.
I just suddenly thought this to myself,... when was the last timeI really had fun.
And I realised that it was a long time ago. A long long time ago.. so sad..
my heart doubts.
so yearning my spirit
my heart sinks.
In fear it sank.
and time passed,
my spirit shall ask,
"where life could be
should one fear not
what lies ahead.
where my heart loves
in his fullness
and the mouth would speak
what I feel
I will tremble
yet I would have
a fearless heart,
and a mighty soul.
Heaven knows
how high the heights
cowards could climb
if he fears not.
I just suddenly thought this to myself,... when was the last timeI really had fun.
And I realised that it was a long time ago. A long long time ago.. so sad..
Friday, October 24, 2008
Having Faith
Having in faith and believing in people is very important.
People who do not believe in themselves have a hard time believing in other people.
Judgment is important.. right judgment is very important.
It is the basis of decisions.
The things we decide upon is very important.
It steers where we are going and e things we speak.
When to do and when not to.
People are mirrors..
People who do not believe in themselves have a hard time believing in other people.
Judgment is important.. right judgment is very important.
It is the basis of decisions.
The things we decide upon is very important.
It steers where we are going and e things we speak.
When to do and when not to.
People are mirrors..
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Joy
In the process of achieving the goals we set for ourselves, we need to make sacrifices.
For example, if I want to be thinner, I cannot eat supper.
Sacrifices are tough. And some of those sacrifices are not as simple as supper.
One of the more difficult ones would be to make right the relationships in our lives.
The word of God says that it is longer I who lives, but Christ who lives in me.
Sounds great but it means dying over and over again to the flesh.
Just when you thought you have given it all up, growing up requires you give up another of your dearly held beliefs or treasure.
God digs deeper into people. There is no way to survive it without praying. The natural tendency is to walk away from pain.
But we must believe God is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him. That He is a giver and not a taker.
Then take joy in life and in Him. Only then we can win the prize, that is to reign with Him into eternity.
Once again... this is a difficult to read post.
so.. lol. sorry ah..
For example, if I want to be thinner, I cannot eat supper.
Sacrifices are tough. And some of those sacrifices are not as simple as supper.
One of the more difficult ones would be to make right the relationships in our lives.
The word of God says that it is longer I who lives, but Christ who lives in me.
Sounds great but it means dying over and over again to the flesh.
Just when you thought you have given it all up, growing up requires you give up another of your dearly held beliefs or treasure.
God digs deeper into people. There is no way to survive it without praying. The natural tendency is to walk away from pain.
But we must believe God is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him. That He is a giver and not a taker.
Then take joy in life and in Him. Only then we can win the prize, that is to reign with Him into eternity.
Once again... this is a difficult to read post.
so.. lol. sorry ah..
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Problems
I believe that 80% of the time, a problem is not solved not because we do not have the solution.
80% of the time, we do not solve a problem because we feel that its too big.
Like a friend whom we have not contacted for a long time because of a misunderstanding.
A criticism which came because of a mistake we make.
plus many others.. exams, stress, shame.... even low self esteem, a situation that went out of control.. the main problem is identifying the problem itself.
If you identify it then actually its no problem...
Actually most of the problems we face are as big as we make them out to be.
And usually, the bigger u think the problem is, the more time u take to resolve it.
I learn this by experience, that seriously there are 8 solvable problems out of every 10 we face, even with people.
Its a matter of perspective and faith and of course some brains.
BUT no matter, everything also can one...
yea... Rememeber the stone from the sling that hit the forehead? He did it cos he made it sound so easy to himself and he refuse to listen to losers. Amen. To hell with losers...
80% of the time, we do not solve a problem because we feel that its too big.
Like a friend whom we have not contacted for a long time because of a misunderstanding.
A criticism which came because of a mistake we make.
plus many others.. exams, stress, shame.... even low self esteem, a situation that went out of control.. the main problem is identifying the problem itself.
If you identify it then actually its no problem...
Actually most of the problems we face are as big as we make them out to be.
And usually, the bigger u think the problem is, the more time u take to resolve it.
I learn this by experience, that seriously there are 8 solvable problems out of every 10 we face, even with people.
Its a matter of perspective and faith and of course some brains.
BUT no matter, everything also can one...
yea... Rememeber the stone from the sling that hit the forehead? He did it cos he made it sound so easy to himself and he refuse to listen to losers. Amen. To hell with losers...
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Destiny
Sometimes man can be so blind.
God has given into our hands the powerful weapons of prayer and faith and we look to other means.
The Kingdom He has placed into our hands.
His people, the lives of young lives given into our hands and we look elsewhere.
He said," Seek first the Kingdom of Heaven and all its Righteousness and all these things shall be added to us"
And I look at all these things.
The Kingdom of Heaven is given into my hands.
The lives that will shake this world and the heavens itself and I despair.
I look upon God and He is eagerly waiting to place a piece of His Kingdom into my hands and I look elsewhere.
I receive tt piece of Heaven and I eagerly wait upon those cities and glory of which I am heir to.
I am a King no less in Christ Jesus and I look elsewhere.
And I found fear, doubt and failure when victory and glory is waiting.
It is mine and He wants to give it to me and therefore I will grab it.
With lust I will chase after the Kingdom and shake the heavenlies.
I will hold my sword alongside the Almighty and tear down walls.
May those who choose to follow follow and those who choose to stay behind stay behind.
As for me and even if it is me alone push forward and lay hold of the glory that was reserved for me and me alone even if it is me alone.
I will not only cast the vision but I will chase that vision down.
When I encounter the enemy, I will cut him down.
I will gaze upon his face and smile.
God has given into our hands the powerful weapons of prayer and faith and we look to other means.
The Kingdom He has placed into our hands.
His people, the lives of young lives given into our hands and we look elsewhere.
He said," Seek first the Kingdom of Heaven and all its Righteousness and all these things shall be added to us"
And I look at all these things.
The Kingdom of Heaven is given into my hands.
The lives that will shake this world and the heavens itself and I despair.
I look upon God and He is eagerly waiting to place a piece of His Kingdom into my hands and I look elsewhere.
I receive tt piece of Heaven and I eagerly wait upon those cities and glory of which I am heir to.
I am a King no less in Christ Jesus and I look elsewhere.
And I found fear, doubt and failure when victory and glory is waiting.
It is mine and He wants to give it to me and therefore I will grab it.
With lust I will chase after the Kingdom and shake the heavenlies.
I will hold my sword alongside the Almighty and tear down walls.
May those who choose to follow follow and those who choose to stay behind stay behind.
As for me and even if it is me alone push forward and lay hold of the glory that was reserved for me and me alone even if it is me alone.
I will not only cast the vision but I will chase that vision down.
When I encounter the enemy, I will cut him down.
I will gaze upon his face and smile.
Convictions of our everyday lives
This is gg to be a very theological argument. without the verses yet because including the verses will cause this entry to be even more systematic and therefore boring.
The main idea is the main cause of depression and distress is the inconsistencies between the desires of God and our own.
In our lives, there needs to be a consistent set of values for Christian living.
I am talking about the everyday life which we lead.
Not having a set of consistent values will force us into situational ethics.
When we are in this position, we undermine our own spiritual lives.
Some prophets in the Bible have very clear ideas of God's purpose in the long corridor of Time, but have failed in their personal living because they have faced strong circumstances. I am not criticising them but all I am saying that humans have a tendency towards situational ethics or rather situational values.
We have to remember the prophets faced dangers who are threatening to claim their lives.
Situational values lead to despair and hopelessness in life. e.g. Jonah, Elijah, even Jeremiah.
Consistent values ensures the source of those values is God Himself and that He is with us in every situation we are in.
That means we will not get the things we want. The consistent values of God will steer our lives towards His plans and His desires for us.
The challenge would be to believe that that which He wants and we do not want is better than all that we want.
Its not easy. The human flesh is a great prison.
To be a leader in today's world, we need to be experts in everyday issues for today.
We need to hold the conviction, live the conviction and preach the conviction.
We are the source of strength for those putting in effort to live God's ways.
The Word of God is the fuel and we are the employees of the Shell Petrol Station.
After all that we have said, the annals of history belong to overcomers. Self Pity kills.
Again some argue that doing God's will will ensure that you will experience the anointing and the joy and that it will be the most natural thing to do.
If then why the many people who choose to deviate from the perfect will of God when they know perfectly the will of God in their hearts?
The things God wants might not be the things we want. We pray and we know that God will turn our hearts as He has turned mine many times.
He showed me a vision and it is a far off dream to me now... it will take me many years but I am glad He showed me... now I know I will not die but I will fulfill that... He showed me way beyond I can think or imagine and I can even believe it.
It is something that I will not believe 2 months ago.
But I can now.
I see it... it is real in my belly.
and from the belly flows.....
ok fine I know u dun understand what I am talking about.
I will add in the verses and the links between the ideas when I have the time.
I just needed to quickly type it out and keep it.
I think this can become a sermon IF i simplify it by about 200%.
The main idea is the main cause of depression and distress is the inconsistencies between the desires of God and our own.
In our lives, there needs to be a consistent set of values for Christian living.
I am talking about the everyday life which we lead.
Not having a set of consistent values will force us into situational ethics.
When we are in this position, we undermine our own spiritual lives.
Some prophets in the Bible have very clear ideas of God's purpose in the long corridor of Time, but have failed in their personal living because they have faced strong circumstances. I am not criticising them but all I am saying that humans have a tendency towards situational ethics or rather situational values.
We have to remember the prophets faced dangers who are threatening to claim their lives.
Situational values lead to despair and hopelessness in life. e.g. Jonah, Elijah, even Jeremiah.
Consistent values ensures the source of those values is God Himself and that He is with us in every situation we are in.
That means we will not get the things we want. The consistent values of God will steer our lives towards His plans and His desires for us.
The challenge would be to believe that that which He wants and we do not want is better than all that we want.
Its not easy. The human flesh is a great prison.
To be a leader in today's world, we need to be experts in everyday issues for today.
We need to hold the conviction, live the conviction and preach the conviction.
We are the source of strength for those putting in effort to live God's ways.
The Word of God is the fuel and we are the employees of the Shell Petrol Station.
After all that we have said, the annals of history belong to overcomers. Self Pity kills.
Again some argue that doing God's will will ensure that you will experience the anointing and the joy and that it will be the most natural thing to do.
If then why the many people who choose to deviate from the perfect will of God when they know perfectly the will of God in their hearts?
The things God wants might not be the things we want. We pray and we know that God will turn our hearts as He has turned mine many times.
He showed me a vision and it is a far off dream to me now... it will take me many years but I am glad He showed me... now I know I will not die but I will fulfill that... He showed me way beyond I can think or imagine and I can even believe it.
It is something that I will not believe 2 months ago.
But I can now.
I see it... it is real in my belly.
and from the belly flows.....
ok fine I know u dun understand what I am talking about.
I will add in the verses and the links between the ideas when I have the time.
I just needed to quickly type it out and keep it.
I think this can become a sermon IF i simplify it by about 200%.
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Life
We have control over how we choose to live our life.
When we realise that much of what is happening to us is what we did to ourselves.. its a little bit easier..
Cos you know that whatever needs to be done is upon us too.
When we realise that much of what is happening to us is what we did to ourselves.. its a little bit easier..
Cos you know that whatever needs to be done is upon us too.
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Social Anxiety
I just read this from a exhibition of the psychology society in NTU.
I din noe about this... think I need a bit of psychology knowledge if I want to do counselling.
Very dangerous Illness being described here:
Social Anxiety
People who have social anxiety tend to:
1. Think very lowly of themselves
2. Magnify mistakes
3. Feel that other people are constantly evaluating them
Bad things that can happen:
A. Avoidance of People
B. Low Self-Esteem
C. Depression
D. Substance Abuse (could be food abuse or even k-box abuse)
E. Academic & Occupational Difficulties
F. Interpersonal Difficulties
The last one is the most disastrous... no help can come to the person.
The 3 Symptoms are very common in varying degrees in all humans.
But the result is a full whammy, perfect recipe for disaster.
And guess what the remedy for this condition is...
The professional term is Exposure.
Which means what it means... Open up oneself to all the situations that caused the problems in the first place.
Which means there is no running it... You just gotta face it, confront it, challenge it and kill it.
If not, it will come back for your soul again and again until u die....
I din noe about this... think I need a bit of psychology knowledge if I want to do counselling.
Very dangerous Illness being described here:
Social Anxiety
People who have social anxiety tend to:
1. Think very lowly of themselves
2. Magnify mistakes
3. Feel that other people are constantly evaluating them
Bad things that can happen:
A. Avoidance of People
B. Low Self-Esteem
C. Depression
D. Substance Abuse (could be food abuse or even k-box abuse)
E. Academic & Occupational Difficulties
F. Interpersonal Difficulties
The last one is the most disastrous... no help can come to the person.
The 3 Symptoms are very common in varying degrees in all humans.
But the result is a full whammy, perfect recipe for disaster.
And guess what the remedy for this condition is...
The professional term is Exposure.
Which means what it means... Open up oneself to all the situations that caused the problems in the first place.
Which means there is no running it... You just gotta face it, confront it, challenge it and kill it.
If not, it will come back for your soul again and again until u die....
Monday, October 6, 2008
piangz
I am gg crazy today.. need to go gym and sweat abit liao..
Read the Bible but today nothing lei.. so weird sia..
Read the Bible but today nothing lei.. so weird sia..
There are things I cannot figure out..
There are lots of things I cannot figure out..
I have been told I got low self awareness..
maybe...
I have been told I got low self awareness..
maybe...
SHI FEN JIALAT...
Tell u all ah... the worst thing I can imagine is life being totally routine.
And I cannot tahan routine life...
NOT because its boring. (I am generally uninteresting)
BUT because it means things are staying the same way they were.
AND that is SHI FEN JIALAT....
And I cannot tahan routine life...
NOT because its boring. (I am generally uninteresting)
BUT because it means things are staying the same way they were.
AND that is SHI FEN JIALAT....
Sisters
I just found out that I mix around with sisters and almost no brothers at all nowadays in church that is...
CG.. Meng, Rach, Qin.
CCH.. Esther, Tracy, Susan, Yuncui, Grace..
Maybe a few brothers.. Delai, Kenneth, Nicholas, thats about it?
jialat.. will I become Ku Niang anot?
Think a bit liao lo... jialat.
CG.. Meng, Rach, Qin.
CCH.. Esther, Tracy, Susan, Yuncui, Grace..
Maybe a few brothers.. Delai, Kenneth, Nicholas, thats about it?
jialat.. will I become Ku Niang anot?
Think a bit liao lo... jialat.
Giving up and Quitting
When I see people quit, it is scary..
They just give up.. and it all seems so natural.
Its tough, its not worth it, its not gg to happen anyway. Its dumb.
All the things they hold dear in their lives... even if it takes some time, why can't people work things out?
We just dun get all the things we want all the time. BUT if the things are the right things.. then why give them up?
nothing starts out perfect, nothing goes perfect and nothing ends perfect for that matter.
I dun know if you call that an interesting part of life or sorrows of life.
But the point is I need strength to see things through.
Its tough. Anything worth getting in this life is tough.
I want to dwell in the house of God forever.
I want to be able to take care of other people.
I want to other people's pillar of strength.
I want to be a constant blessing to other people.
I want to be a CGL.
I want to be....
IIIII
ok.. so I got to work things out.
Bo pian... can't afford to leave things the way they are.
They just give up.. and it all seems so natural.
Its tough, its not worth it, its not gg to happen anyway. Its dumb.
All the things they hold dear in their lives... even if it takes some time, why can't people work things out?
We just dun get all the things we want all the time. BUT if the things are the right things.. then why give them up?
nothing starts out perfect, nothing goes perfect and nothing ends perfect for that matter.
I dun know if you call that an interesting part of life or sorrows of life.
But the point is I need strength to see things through.
Its tough. Anything worth getting in this life is tough.
I want to dwell in the house of God forever.
I want to be able to take care of other people.
I want to other people's pillar of strength.
I want to be a constant blessing to other people.
I want to be a CGL.
I want to be....
IIIII
ok.. so I got to work things out.
Bo pian... can't afford to leave things the way they are.
Being Emo and all.. Being Spiritual and all..
OK I am not supposed to be blogging now.
Was talking about emo people and all a few days ago.
I was thinking there is actually no one who gets along well with another person easily all the time.
There will be conflicts, times when the person goes completely bonkers and stuff.
Love is not easy to come by.. not jus the feeling.. the actions alongside it..
Tough tough tough if we rest on our flesh..
People are just people.
Breathing heaven's air is needed.
Keeping on with a decision is hard without trust and love in God, in the people around you.
We never know where life takes us.. and a lifetime is long time to waste..
Takes lots of effort to keeping life and people running.. If someone ever put up an ad for the post of God.. count me out.. its gg to kill.
Was talking about emo people and all a few days ago.
I was thinking there is actually no one who gets along well with another person easily all the time.
There will be conflicts, times when the person goes completely bonkers and stuff.
Love is not easy to come by.. not jus the feeling.. the actions alongside it..
Tough tough tough if we rest on our flesh..
People are just people.
Breathing heaven's air is needed.
Keeping on with a decision is hard without trust and love in God, in the people around you.
We never know where life takes us.. and a lifetime is long time to waste..
Takes lots of effort to keeping life and people running.. If someone ever put up an ad for the post of God.. count me out.. its gg to kill.
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Blessers and People waiting to be blessed.
I find people who are blessers the happiest people in the world.
It is more blessed to give than to receive.
People who are waiting for good things to come by their lives are often the most miserable people in the world.
So I seek to make other people's life easier.
I will bless people who will let me and make their day with the things which I do!
If they do not wished to be blessed by me, i will go find someone else to bless.
Lack of self-confidence is selfishness, so is lack of skills.. they are all products of selfishness.
I seek to give the people I know the best I have.
The best of myself.
To the best ground...
Yup so if I am destroying someone's life I will stop whatever I am doing.
That includes my own.
so help me God..
It is more blessed to give than to receive.
People who are waiting for good things to come by their lives are often the most miserable people in the world.
So I seek to make other people's life easier.
I will bless people who will let me and make their day with the things which I do!
If they do not wished to be blessed by me, i will go find someone else to bless.
Lack of self-confidence is selfishness, so is lack of skills.. they are all products of selfishness.
I seek to give the people I know the best I have.
The best of myself.
To the best ground...
Yup so if I am destroying someone's life I will stop whatever I am doing.
That includes my own.
so help me God..
Help needed to renew the blogskin.
Ok I admit, I am a dinosaur from Jurassic Age.
I went to a blogskin website, downloaded the code and is unable to change my blogskin.
So..... Yuan Xing needs help.. any form of help to get a new blogskin!
Thank you.
I just changed my clock on the blog so now the time is Singapore Time now..
Never took the effort to check things out.
So I realised all the past entries are 16 hours behind time.
lol.
I went to a blogskin website, downloaded the code and is unable to change my blogskin.
So..... Yuan Xing needs help.. any form of help to get a new blogskin!
Thank you.
I just changed my clock on the blog so now the time is Singapore Time now..
Never took the effort to check things out.
So I realised all the past entries are 16 hours behind time.
lol.
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Schools of Thought in Evangelism
Ok there are 2 schools of thought.
From the way I see it.
1st School of Thought
We bring a friend to church by showing lots of care and concern. Focus on the friend and love him or her with all we've got. Lots of sacrifices.
The objective is to build a long lasting relationship. In the process, very tough and heart wrenching and lots of work.
And there is no guarantees that the friend will be planted in the house of God.
2nd School of Thought
We share the gospel with as many people as possible. In a way, it means taking as many shots as possible.
We hone our ability and anointing to share the gospel such that our sharing is effective. It leads the people to seek Jesus and pray the sinner's prayer.
The time taken is short and how far the process goes depends on how receptive the person is. This mostly ensures we reach the most receptive people first.
Its been shown the 2nd method works far better.
Basically a combination of both.
Some thoughts.
Do comment and give some opinions.
Especially those who haven been there done that and brought in souls for Jesus before.
From the way I see it.
1st School of Thought
We bring a friend to church by showing lots of care and concern. Focus on the friend and love him or her with all we've got. Lots of sacrifices.
The objective is to build a long lasting relationship. In the process, very tough and heart wrenching and lots of work.
And there is no guarantees that the friend will be planted in the house of God.
2nd School of Thought
We share the gospel with as many people as possible. In a way, it means taking as many shots as possible.
We hone our ability and anointing to share the gospel such that our sharing is effective. It leads the people to seek Jesus and pray the sinner's prayer.
The time taken is short and how far the process goes depends on how receptive the person is. This mostly ensures we reach the most receptive people first.
Its been shown the 2nd method works far better.
Basically a combination of both.
Some thoughts.
Do comment and give some opinions.
Especially those who haven been there done that and brought in souls for Jesus before.
Saturday, September 13, 2008
Never go down
Some smart guy once said to Napoleon, "Fame is temporary."
To that statement, Napoleon answered, " Fame IS temporary, but obscurity(basically the direct opposite of fame) is ETERNAL."
Well I agree COMPLETELY with Napoleon.
I don't want to live a quiet life and die in silence.
I WILL NOT GO DOWN IN SILENCE!!
To that statement, Napoleon answered, " Fame IS temporary, but obscurity(basically the direct opposite of fame) is ETERNAL."
Well I agree COMPLETELY with Napoleon.
I don't want to live a quiet life and die in silence.
I WILL NOT GO DOWN IN SILENCE!!
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
A Song..
You are my Shepherd.
There's nothing I want.
I rest in green pastures.
My soul is restored.
My path, it is righteous.
You are my guide.
The valley of shadows will cause me to hide.
You are always there for me.
You are the Shepherd of my heart and soul.
There for me.
You are the Lord of all I am.
Your unfailing love and mercy covers me.
Your unfailing love and mercy covers me.
I have a table that You have prepared.
Its cup overfowing,
Oil's on my head.
Your goodness and mercy, all of my days.
In Your house I stay.
You are always there for me.
You are the Shepherd of my heart and soul.
There for me.
You are the Lord of all I am.
Your unfailing love and mercy covers me.
Your unfailing love and mercy covers me.
You are my Shepherd and You walk with me.
You are my whole life and You give all I need.
You are the peace that makes me cose? and feel so free.
Your unfailing love and mercy covers me.
You are my Restorer and You heal my soul.
You make me able to stand right and whole.
You are my constant companion and, no matter where I go.
You put this heart inside me.
You put this heart inside me.
This heart..x4
So free...........x6
-----Prayerworks.
You are the consuming passion of my life.
You devour my entire life and You fill my thoughts.
My heart it pounds in fear of You.
Should You withhold, I will not breathe.
You give me all I need.
Whom shall I ask but You?
Where can I turn to but You?
But the good things You have not withheld from me.
Your blessings and approval You have not withheld from me.
Your chastening and rebuke You have not withheld from me.
that I might know that I am a son in Your house and not an outsider.
that I might know You and the power of Your resurrection and the fellowship of Your sufferings, being conformed to Your death. --- Phil 3:10
O Hades, where is your sting?
There's nothing I want.
I rest in green pastures.
My soul is restored.
My path, it is righteous.
You are my guide.
The valley of shadows will cause me to hide.
You are always there for me.
You are the Shepherd of my heart and soul.
There for me.
You are the Lord of all I am.
Your unfailing love and mercy covers me.
Your unfailing love and mercy covers me.
I have a table that You have prepared.
Its cup overfowing,
Oil's on my head.
Your goodness and mercy, all of my days.
In Your house I stay.
You are always there for me.
You are the Shepherd of my heart and soul.
There for me.
You are the Lord of all I am.
Your unfailing love and mercy covers me.
Your unfailing love and mercy covers me.
You are my Shepherd and You walk with me.
You are my whole life and You give all I need.
You are the peace that makes me cose? and feel so free.
Your unfailing love and mercy covers me.
You are my Restorer and You heal my soul.
You make me able to stand right and whole.
You are my constant companion and, no matter where I go.
You put this heart inside me.
You put this heart inside me.
This heart..x4
So free...........x6
-----Prayerworks.
You are the consuming passion of my life.
You devour my entire life and You fill my thoughts.
My heart it pounds in fear of You.
Should You withhold, I will not breathe.
You give me all I need.
Whom shall I ask but You?
Where can I turn to but You?
But the good things You have not withheld from me.
Your blessings and approval You have not withheld from me.
Your chastening and rebuke You have not withheld from me.
that I might know that I am a son in Your house and not an outsider.
that I might know You and the power of Your resurrection and the fellowship of Your sufferings, being conformed to Your death. --- Phil 3:10
O Hades, where is your sting?
11 Sept 2008
Alright, Qin, its true.. I had fallen into the trap of not blogging again.
My desktop is coming in finally.
2.0 GHz duo core, 2 Gb RAM, DVD Burner and 320Gb of harddisk...
The harddisk is most needed.. In today's post modern society, my laptop's 67Gb is filling up, fast!
So I am happy my new desktop is coming!!
Work intensity is building up in all my subjects. My engineering graphics lecturer is getting a kick out of watching us struggle.. ahha.. but he is good la no doubt.. Prof Lim. He is actually quite cute.
Ok.
There are other stuff happening also.. jus blogged to keep this blog alive. Back to tutorials nw!
oh yea can someone give me some guidance to changing my blogskin? hmmm i a bit buay tahan my blog alr... haha..
My desktop is coming in finally.
2.0 GHz duo core, 2 Gb RAM, DVD Burner and 320Gb of harddisk...
The harddisk is most needed.. In today's post modern society, my laptop's 67Gb is filling up, fast!
So I am happy my new desktop is coming!!
Work intensity is building up in all my subjects. My engineering graphics lecturer is getting a kick out of watching us struggle.. ahha.. but he is good la no doubt.. Prof Lim. He is actually quite cute.
Ok.
There are other stuff happening also.. jus blogged to keep this blog alive. Back to tutorials nw!
oh yea can someone give me some guidance to changing my blogskin? hmmm i a bit buay tahan my blog alr... haha..
Thursday, August 28, 2008
Resurrection
My blog has been dead for a long while.
Due to massive workloads...
As Bro Bobby has described, ...9 theological book reviews, 10 mock cgs and 5 preaching tests....
So today is the resurrection.. 12.42 am on thursday morning.
Wonderful day.
Hahaha.. lets continue another day. I got things to write about but probably not now.
Now I work...
Due to massive workloads...
As Bro Bobby has described, ...9 theological book reviews, 10 mock cgs and 5 preaching tests....
So today is the resurrection.. 12.42 am on thursday morning.
Wonderful day.
Hahaha.. lets continue another day. I got things to write about but probably not now.
Now I work...
Monday, June 30, 2008
Choose to Build, Not to Destroy
In the Bible, there are a few mentions of special relationships between the leader and his armourbearer.
One of the most special relationships is the one between Jonathan and David.
The Word of God tells us that their souls were knitted together.
When Samuel anointed David to be King, David did not immediately receive the kingdom.
David is not immediately ready. The vision is not complete. His faith, the substance of his reality to be, is not complete. If his vision were a building, it probably lacked a few pillars or a few bricks here and there.
Jonathan was one of the man sent to David to put in a few pillars.
Jonathan loved David.
Friends, when our leaders cast a vision before us, do we kill the vision with doubt, unbelief and quiet criticism? Or do we cast in our lot with him and build the vision with him?
The building is not complete, choose to put in the pillar, choose to strengthen the vision of the leader.
I believe and I choose to cast in my lot with my leader.
One of the most special relationships is the one between Jonathan and David.
The Word of God tells us that their souls were knitted together.
When Samuel anointed David to be King, David did not immediately receive the kingdom.
David is not immediately ready. The vision is not complete. His faith, the substance of his reality to be, is not complete. If his vision were a building, it probably lacked a few pillars or a few bricks here and there.
Jonathan was one of the man sent to David to put in a few pillars.
Jonathan loved David.
Friends, when our leaders cast a vision before us, do we kill the vision with doubt, unbelief and quiet criticism? Or do we cast in our lot with him and build the vision with him?
The building is not complete, choose to put in the pillar, choose to strengthen the vision of the leader.
I believe and I choose to cast in my lot with my leader.
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Preaching Tests
It was a rare opportunity and privilege to preach.
Homiletics is definitely one of the highlights of my time in SOT.
Thank you to Mabelline for recording 10mins of my preaching.
Mabelline, in my opinion, is one of the best preachers. I have a lot to learn from her.
One of the coolest and cutting edges of Team 18.
Thank you to Kin Sung for the breakfast nasi lemaks and bee hoons. My stomach is filled before the tests every single day because of his diligent trips to the coffeeshop.
I feel loved.. haha..
Homiletics is definitely one of the highlights of my time in SOT.
Thank you to Mabelline for recording 10mins of my preaching.
Mabelline, in my opinion, is one of the best preachers. I have a lot to learn from her.
One of the coolest and cutting edges of Team 18.
Thank you to Kin Sung for the breakfast nasi lemaks and bee hoons. My stomach is filled before the tests every single day because of his diligent trips to the coffeeshop.
I feel loved.. haha..
Monday, May 12, 2008
I wanna be where You are..
I just wanna be where You are.
I hope I will have this heart forever, no matter what happens.
One thing I ask, that I may dwell in Your house forever....
I hope I will have this heart forever, no matter what happens.
One thing I ask, that I may dwell in Your house forever....
Thursday, April 10, 2008
Killing Dragons and Goliaths
Friends.. the chinese have a proverb, catch dragon must go for the head FIRST.
Qin2 Long2 Xian1 Qin2 Shou3
Even David killed the giant by hitting the forehead.
That requires courage, accuracy and faith.. Go for the head!!
Qin2 Long2 Xian1 Qin2 Shou3
Even David killed the giant by hitting the forehead.
That requires courage, accuracy and faith.. Go for the head!!
Saturday, April 5, 2008
Happenings
Plans to lose weight/Plans to strike it rich/Plans to get attached/Plans for SOT/Plans to pull up GPA....
Correct... especially the last 2...
Ok its been a long time since I posted. I have things I better post before I forget.
Number 1.
15 Important Things in a Water Baptism Service
1. Call the baptism candidate to make sure he or she has all they need 2 days before
2. Make sure present is suitable
3. Make sure apple, salt and candle appear
4. Appoint a super zai photographer and photographer must reach before baptism candidate
5. Appoint one PA for baptism candidate for towel, misc
6. Find and chope a good place to gather after baptism
7. Photographer must stand at strategic position for strategic photos
8. Take many group photographs and videos
9. Remember to pray for baptism candidate
10. Baptism Card must have a lot of messages
11. Photographs must be posted and sent to baptism candidate
12. Appoint Security Guard for bags.
13. Gather Quickly
14. Build up a great atmosphere
15. Know the supporters who will be there.
Received a huge love offering today. Thank God.
And I owe a big thank you to all the "Shareholders"
Super Touched and Super Excited for SOT.
Faith fills my heart..
Correct... especially the last 2...
Ok its been a long time since I posted. I have things I better post before I forget.
Number 1.
15 Important Things in a Water Baptism Service
1. Call the baptism candidate to make sure he or she has all they need 2 days before
2. Make sure present is suitable
3. Make sure apple, salt and candle appear
4. Appoint a super zai photographer and photographer must reach before baptism candidate
5. Appoint one PA for baptism candidate for towel, misc
6. Find and chope a good place to gather after baptism
7. Photographer must stand at strategic position for strategic photos
8. Take many group photographs and videos
9. Remember to pray for baptism candidate
10. Baptism Card must have a lot of messages
11. Photographs must be posted and sent to baptism candidate
12. Appoint Security Guard for bags.
13. Gather Quickly
14. Build up a great atmosphere
15. Know the supporters who will be there.
Received a huge love offering today. Thank God.
And I owe a big thank you to all the "Shareholders"
Super Touched and Super Excited for SOT.
Faith fills my heart..
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Glory
People think that we will nv make it.
We will never reach but I cannot explain why there is a feeling of faith in me.
It is no longer about me but He who is in me.
That feeling of substance and vision is nagging my very soul..
It simply will nt leave.
There may come a day when we may fail and wonder what happened, but it is not today.
There may come a day when all the naysayers got it right and say, 'see, see, tt bunch of losers', but it is not today.
There may come a day when we have to part from unity and walk our seperate ways, but it is not today.
There may come a day when we make a fiasco of our lives and that we know its all over but it is not today.
Today I see the vision of glory, substance and success... Today I feel like a winner inside of me.
It is not psychology... I am a winner because God is one and today He stirs in me that spirit of victory...
There will come a day when the enemies will shatter our helmets and splinter our swords and shield BUT it is not today.
Today we will take the field.. with raw faith and giving all what little we have...
So God help us.
You say let the weak say they are strong.
Today our weakness is made perfect in You.
Fame is temporary, Obscurity is forever..- Napoleon Bonaparte
How apt...
I don't know what holds tomorrow but Glory and Fame is for today.
History is yesterday but History making is today..
We will never reach but I cannot explain why there is a feeling of faith in me.
It is no longer about me but He who is in me.
That feeling of substance and vision is nagging my very soul..
It simply will nt leave.
There may come a day when we may fail and wonder what happened, but it is not today.
There may come a day when all the naysayers got it right and say, 'see, see, tt bunch of losers', but it is not today.
There may come a day when we have to part from unity and walk our seperate ways, but it is not today.
There may come a day when we make a fiasco of our lives and that we know its all over but it is not today.
Today I see the vision of glory, substance and success... Today I feel like a winner inside of me.
It is not psychology... I am a winner because God is one and today He stirs in me that spirit of victory...
There will come a day when the enemies will shatter our helmets and splinter our swords and shield BUT it is not today.
Today we will take the field.. with raw faith and giving all what little we have...
So God help us.
You say let the weak say they are strong.
Today our weakness is made perfect in You.
Fame is temporary, Obscurity is forever..- Napoleon Bonaparte
How apt...
I don't know what holds tomorrow but Glory and Fame is for today.
History is yesterday but History making is today..
Monday, March 17, 2008
Details determine Destiny..
This is absolutely true...
I can think of at least 6-7 people in one second whose life was determined by details.
or even events in my life.
I can think of at least 6-7 people in one second whose life was determined by details.
or even events in my life.
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Worship
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
A Sweet Soul
Some pretty good verses... took away about a 1000 words.
1. Leviticus 10:3
This is what the LORD spoke, saying:
‘By those who come near Me
I must be regarded as holy;
And before all the people
I must be glorified.’”
2. James 3:16-17
16 For where envy and self-seeking exist, confusion and every evil thing are there. 17 But the wisdom that is from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, willing to yield, full of mercy and good fruits, without partiality and without hypocrisy
1. Leviticus 10:3
This is what the LORD spoke, saying:
‘By those who come near Me
I must be regarded as holy;
And before all the people
I must be glorified.’”
2. James 3:16-17
16 For where envy and self-seeking exist, confusion and every evil thing are there. 17 But the wisdom that is from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, willing to yield, full of mercy and good fruits, without partiality and without hypocrisy
Monday, March 10, 2008
Very Sad...
ARRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH.....!!!!!!!
1. Starting Song Right
2. Clapping at 2-4
3. Rest the guitarist
4. Find suitable VC to use
5. Sing with dan tian
6. Many many other things
I have actually resorted to watching Bro Poh in school.
No more ppfilm, no more youtube, no more tudou
Jus Bro Poh.
Bro Poh is gg to dominate my WMP.
Desperate situations call for desperate measures.
No more 933 No more Class 95... and definitely no Jay Chou...
At the end of the day, i just wanna praise God and lead good praise.
So God help me...
1. Starting Song Right
2. Clapping at 2-4
3. Rest the guitarist
4. Find suitable VC to use
5. Sing with dan tian
6. Many many other things
I have actually resorted to watching Bro Poh in school.
No more ppfilm, no more youtube, no more tudou
Jus Bro Poh.
Bro Poh is gg to dominate my WMP.
Desperate situations call for desperate measures.
No more 933 No more Class 95... and definitely no Jay Chou...
At the end of the day, i just wanna praise God and lead good praise.
So God help me...
Monday, March 3, 2008
Thai Express
I went to Holland Village on foot from Buona Vista in a drizzle on Sunday Afternoon... zzzzz....
Dun know which good friend tell me its very near (though I do need to thank the friend for many favours) and the map was so deceiving..
By the time I reached, I needed a coffee so I wun faint of excitement..
The DJ on 933 was just talking about dreams...
I dream a lot...
I am always dreaming about myself in many places.
Sometimes the dreams are so good because it was what I wanted so much that I would cry when I woke up and find out that it was not reality because it was always so real in my dreams. Those were big dreams.. I was all over the world. I was in front of a multitude...
Sometimes the dreams are so bad because my deepest fears materialised in the dreams and I would wake up in cold sweat all over..
I always wanted to be in the army.. so when I went to NS, I was excited I am going to be away from home which at that time was not much of a home anyway..
I prayed I would end up in the infantry and I was there.
I prayed I would not be doing just what everyone was doing and I rode the bike.
I prayed I would be strong all my NS life and I was.
So I was actually very blessed in army and I went to taiwan twice and thailand once.
If I could go for more exercises, I would..
I got injured in a huge race in my division. But I completed the race and I was not the last. I overtook many who were without injuries. I was determined to win that race. I scored 90% for the shoot in the middle of that race using a rifle which was not zeroed to my eye.
I proved what the adverts said, that SAR 21 needed no zeroing so the rifle is not that bad after all. Our team came in 7th, not fantastic but that was a victory. Everyone came through it in great spirits.
Some people around me thought the race was a huge crap. Some superficially encouraged me but they thought nothing of it. I shared my victory with the people in church and they congratulate me (with a what-happened? look) but I knew they had no inkling of what the victory was for me. I ran it with God. The division commander is the smartest guy that ever commanded the division. Infact even the regulars in the army din know what it was for.. they jus knew that it was a huge event... The huge race was to build up combat fitness across the units in the division much like the OPMs we have in church. Even those who have been in the army would spit at that and say that is huge crap but combat fitness has saved many lives and made armies won victories jus like OPMs.
Some in the army, on the other hand, took it too seriously. The Battalion CO gave out medals and formed dream teams.. I mean there was no glory in the race. It was all in the name of great fun. He treated it like a huge battle.. haha... I just wanted to run. Dun ask me what I have learnt or gained out of it, I did not.. I just wanted to run.. I was so happy then. The world was in my hands. All I did was all I ever wanted. I was always happy. I was on top of the world.
I would give everything up just to run that race again.. it was the best thing that happened to me.
Why can't things be just for fun? Why must it be for a purpose? Why must it be something important? Why must I learn something out of everything? Why would the army be wasting our time? I joined the mainstream flow and criticise the army with everyone else. but it was never what my heart meant... I long to be in the fields of Thailand and the hills in Taiwan than anywhere else.
Hard to believe right? but I have been dreaming about being in the army since I was a kid. I was who I am and was happy back then.
I went to the infantry because I knew that was where the real army was. I was so excited. But there was a few disppointments, infantry didn't turn out to be as exciting as I thought it would be... No one took the training seriously.
No one thought the infantry was important. Everyone thought it was the Airforce or the big guns in the Artillery or the big vehicles in the Armour Battalion... but all history has shown Infantry to be the single most important Arm in any army.
So many battles were decided by the quality of the infantry that I cannot believe how little infantry was thought of in the SAF. The Army will pay for this in blood if we ever went to war. You put the least educated, least trustworthy men in the most important arm and all you get is a screwed battalion.
And now some smart kids think mechanising all infantry would make it better.. lol. Another idea was to label soldiers with unit and arm tags.. lol.
I heard 10th Mono's CO was a genius. One 4-day exercise every 2 weeks and He would make sure his battalion books out on thursday on the exercise week. His battalion probably suxed at parade discipline and many other sai kangs.. but they beat the shit out of the ATEC company. They were the battalion to score a 1 against ATEC. We got a 2B..
Well its all over and I had fun...
Dun know which good friend tell me its very near (though I do need to thank the friend for many favours) and the map was so deceiving..
By the time I reached, I needed a coffee so I wun faint of excitement..
The DJ on 933 was just talking about dreams...
I dream a lot...
I am always dreaming about myself in many places.
Sometimes the dreams are so good because it was what I wanted so much that I would cry when I woke up and find out that it was not reality because it was always so real in my dreams. Those were big dreams.. I was all over the world. I was in front of a multitude...
Sometimes the dreams are so bad because my deepest fears materialised in the dreams and I would wake up in cold sweat all over..
I always wanted to be in the army.. so when I went to NS, I was excited I am going to be away from home which at that time was not much of a home anyway..
I prayed I would end up in the infantry and I was there.
I prayed I would not be doing just what everyone was doing and I rode the bike.
I prayed I would be strong all my NS life and I was.
So I was actually very blessed in army and I went to taiwan twice and thailand once.
If I could go for more exercises, I would..
I got injured in a huge race in my division. But I completed the race and I was not the last. I overtook many who were without injuries. I was determined to win that race. I scored 90% for the shoot in the middle of that race using a rifle which was not zeroed to my eye.
I proved what the adverts said, that SAR 21 needed no zeroing so the rifle is not that bad after all. Our team came in 7th, not fantastic but that was a victory. Everyone came through it in great spirits.
Some people around me thought the race was a huge crap. Some superficially encouraged me but they thought nothing of it. I shared my victory with the people in church and they congratulate me (with a what-happened? look) but I knew they had no inkling of what the victory was for me. I ran it with God. The division commander is the smartest guy that ever commanded the division. Infact even the regulars in the army din know what it was for.. they jus knew that it was a huge event... The huge race was to build up combat fitness across the units in the division much like the OPMs we have in church. Even those who have been in the army would spit at that and say that is huge crap but combat fitness has saved many lives and made armies won victories jus like OPMs.
Some in the army, on the other hand, took it too seriously. The Battalion CO gave out medals and formed dream teams.. I mean there was no glory in the race. It was all in the name of great fun. He treated it like a huge battle.. haha... I just wanted to run. Dun ask me what I have learnt or gained out of it, I did not.. I just wanted to run.. I was so happy then. The world was in my hands. All I did was all I ever wanted. I was always happy. I was on top of the world.
I would give everything up just to run that race again.. it was the best thing that happened to me.
Why can't things be just for fun? Why must it be for a purpose? Why must it be something important? Why must I learn something out of everything? Why would the army be wasting our time? I joined the mainstream flow and criticise the army with everyone else. but it was never what my heart meant... I long to be in the fields of Thailand and the hills in Taiwan than anywhere else.
Hard to believe right? but I have been dreaming about being in the army since I was a kid. I was who I am and was happy back then.
I went to the infantry because I knew that was where the real army was. I was so excited. But there was a few disppointments, infantry didn't turn out to be as exciting as I thought it would be... No one took the training seriously.
No one thought the infantry was important. Everyone thought it was the Airforce or the big guns in the Artillery or the big vehicles in the Armour Battalion... but all history has shown Infantry to be the single most important Arm in any army.
So many battles were decided by the quality of the infantry that I cannot believe how little infantry was thought of in the SAF. The Army will pay for this in blood if we ever went to war. You put the least educated, least trustworthy men in the most important arm and all you get is a screwed battalion.
And now some smart kids think mechanising all infantry would make it better.. lol. Another idea was to label soldiers with unit and arm tags.. lol.
I heard 10th Mono's CO was a genius. One 4-day exercise every 2 weeks and He would make sure his battalion books out on thursday on the exercise week. His battalion probably suxed at parade discipline and many other sai kangs.. but they beat the shit out of the ATEC company. They were the battalion to score a 1 against ATEC. We got a 2B..
Well its all over and I had fun...
I am actually very evil...
Whenever I feel like cursing people I love and wished they were dead, I remind my soul that God is in control and that He loves all of us.
There were times when I wished God just loved ME alone and no other but its not true...
The wish is true though...
So I keep my mouth shut and wait... I know its my fault most of the time but I always wished it were somebody else's fault. Because why does it always have to be me?
I am not kind nor loving nor very holy, so the next time things start to piss me off, know that I am always pleading the blood of Jesus over my soul so that I will not blow up and eat people up..
Haha... now you know how evil I am.. wonder how many will read this... I think people who read this already know this.. so its ok..
There were times when I wished God just loved ME alone and no other but its not true...
The wish is true though...
So I keep my mouth shut and wait... I know its my fault most of the time but I always wished it were somebody else's fault. Because why does it always have to be me?
I am not kind nor loving nor very holy, so the next time things start to piss me off, know that I am always pleading the blood of Jesus over my soul so that I will not blow up and eat people up..
Haha... now you know how evil I am.. wonder how many will read this... I think people who read this already know this.. so its ok..
Number 51
Then you shall know that I am the LORD, when I have dealt with you for My name’s sake, not according to your wicked ways nor according to your corrupt doings, O house of Israel,” says the Lord GOD.’”
God lets His people know by experience and by life that the rise and fall of nations, churches, powers, groups and even individuals are in His control. No man holds the power nor key to raise or put down, kill or revive, give or take away except by God's hands.
Then you shall know who to seek in times of trouble, in times of distress, you shall run to the LORD your God because He shall raise you up. In the event He decides to kill, no man can escape.
Then you shall confess with your tongue, your soul and entire being that He is Lord and that nothing you can do will change that.
Then you will realise He loves you and that nothing that happened ever happened without Him.
Then when you fall you will know that no man except Him will raise you up because He has claimed your life for Himself.
Then you will know in your soul that everything is working for good in your life.
Because He has called you. Whether you realise it or not is immaterial.
He will make sure you find Him.
For if He has the power to bring empires and entire generations to their kneels, then He will know how to bring you into His embrace. Trust Him, He will not miss nor will He have one flaw in His plan.
Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by your name; You are Mine.
If My people, who are called by My name, will humble themselves and pray and seek My face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land.
God lets His people know by experience and by life that the rise and fall of nations, churches, powers, groups and even individuals are in His control. No man holds the power nor key to raise or put down, kill or revive, give or take away except by God's hands.
Then you shall know who to seek in times of trouble, in times of distress, you shall run to the LORD your God because He shall raise you up. In the event He decides to kill, no man can escape.
Then you shall confess with your tongue, your soul and entire being that He is Lord and that nothing you can do will change that.
Then you will realise He loves you and that nothing that happened ever happened without Him.
Then when you fall you will know that no man except Him will raise you up because He has claimed your life for Himself.
Then you will know in your soul that everything is working for good in your life.
Because He has called you. Whether you realise it or not is immaterial.
He will make sure you find Him.
For if He has the power to bring empires and entire generations to their kneels, then He will know how to bring you into His embrace. Trust Him, He will not miss nor will He have one flaw in His plan.
Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by your name; You are Mine.
If My people, who are called by My name, will humble themselves and pray and seek My face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land.
Philippians 3:8-11
Philippians 3:8-11 (New King James Version)
8 Yet indeed I also count all things loss for the excellence of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord, for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and count them as rubbish, that I may gain Christ
9 and be found in Him, not having my own righteousness, which is from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ, the righteousness which is from God by faith;
10 that I may know Him and the power of His resurrection, and the fellowship of His sufferings, being conformed to His death,
11 if, by any means, I may attain to the resurrection from the dead.
8 Yet indeed I also count all things loss for the excellence of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord, for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and count them as rubbish, that I may gain Christ
9 and be found in Him, not having my own righteousness, which is from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ, the righteousness which is from God by faith;
10 that I may know Him and the power of His resurrection, and the fellowship of His sufferings, being conformed to His death,
11 if, by any means, I may attain to the resurrection from the dead.
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Its Truly been a LONG TIME..
Right.. its been some time since I updated.
My hope is, after such a long time, less people will read my blog.
Lets start off with a story.
One day, a super holy Christian named John (same name as the one on Patmos but the similarities end there) was fasting and praying. Easter was drawing near and he wanted 50 people to come to his CG.
Jesus was looking down from Heaven and saw John, His heart warmed up and He decided to award the highest ranking miracle to John. He was gg to jio John for lunch..
So Jesus came to John and said, " Yo Bro, lets go for a meal and a long chit chat!"
John said with a troubled look, "But Jesus, I am fasting. Cannot la..."
This is obviously a fabricated story. This kind of response can only be extracted from a obviously fabricated John with a brain of order "RETARDED FIRST CLASS"... It is equivalent to rejecting the girl of your dreams when she asks you out for a lunch date.. I tell you if I were John, the lunch will nv end..
I will push everything out of my schedule, who cares about the schedule anyway? I will probably throw my damn handphone away..
John missed the whole point... but he was doing all the right things..
From the other end of the Spectrum, the whole point can be missed on the other level.
Connect Group IC (aka CGI) asks, " hey you wanna come for OPM on friday?"
Member replies, "Nope.."
CGI ( super stunned) asked, "but why, I thought your exams are over? you got something on?"
Member replies, " Nope.. jus dun want to go.."
Win liao lor... CGI diam diam errr nothing to say.
Member triumphs.. thinking this is really effective. If it works on the CGI why not try it on the CGL?
Steady sure work one, thought the Member..
What difference is this from John in the story? Do you think on the day you stand before God, your CGL or CGI is gg to be sitting on the Great White Throne? or you think your CGL's name is spelled J-E- S-U-S? God is not man, that He should be mocked..
If you are one year old Christian, I say ok nvm... young..
If you are two year old Christian, I say ok nvm, late bloomer..
If you are three year old Christian, I say nvm, probably needs a kick in the ass..
If you are above that.. What the hell did you attend all those services and cgs for?
I watched a movie that really got me watching.. Christianity is about the relationship.
That is almost becoming a cliche.. but to draw an effective parallel, I recommend anyone who is super free to watch " The Devil wears Prada" and watch Anne Hathaway's character. It depicts a road that transforms a person inside out.
She entered into the fashion magazine industry, a complete idiot.. struggled with the new environment and angry with everything associated with it. Just like the new Christian after maybe a month, sometimes frustrated at why things are changing in life.. Some simply quit at this point.. but Anne Hathaway din.. She said to herself she is gg to beat the odds and not let the frustrations take her life away. (as they claim in the movie, you work for Miranda for a year and you can get a job in any magazine, a million girls would kill for this job). So please, to all the new converts with a new found love for God, don't quit.. (You serve God for a year and you are gg to be blown away)
So Anne got on with the program, learning the names of the various designers and their first names, putting in extra hours of work, working her ass off, keeping her mouth shut. She was putting in all she's got and it was not enough.. why? cos she was focused on getting the job done and looking fwd to waving the office goodbye.. She refused to change her fashion sense, refused to get serious with the industry she was in, refused to take on its identity and basically, refused to change...
Its true, you gotta get your heart into what you are doing..
There was a classic line in the movie when Anne mentioned that she is not interested in changing herself (upgrading her fashion sense) for the job she landed, Nigel (a senior department head in Runway magazine) said to Anne, "so I guess this is what this multi billion industry is about.. Inner Beauty..." That got me laughin.. but it got me thinking.. what am I holding back from God? What am I holding back from my loved ones? With all your mind, all your soul and all your heart...
Alright, lets get on with the program.. so eventually Anne decided to take her job seriously and ASKED Nigel for help to upgrade herself.. Point is if you want something and you don't have it, you really got to ask... just ask for it, whether you get it or not doesn't really matter. (cos most of the time, you get it anyway). Ask and it will be given..
This was the turning point in her career. If she did not decide at this point to change, she be sitting at the same desk pushing papers, buying coffee and getting Miranda's coat and bag thrown on her desk for the next ten long years (if she can even last so long in the first place) and still be dreaming about her big break.. You gotta decide to give it your all, your best shot.. cos time doesn't change a thing, only you can..
so Anne stunned the whole world with her new found interest in Chanels, Jimmy Choos, Gabbanas.. what says you.. You gotta get interested in things like Bible reading, Prayer, OPMs, Service PMs and Pst Ulf screaming China!! India!! and you realise you got 20 billion people to save.. haha..
Then she found herself getting further and further away from her old relationships. Her boyfriend begins to think that they no longer have anything in common. Her friends began to think that she sold her life to Miranda...
Well.. doesn't that sound super familiar? and Nigel contributed another amazing line here, "Let me know when your whole life goes up in smokes, it means that its time for a promotion.."
I am jus pulling a parallel here so I dun mean that you got to blow your whole life up when you become a Christian, we have diversely different values from Nigel in Runway Magazine.. for more info, please refer to Pst Tan's sermon on V.A.L.U.E.S...
But the bible does speak about the circumcision of our lives, about denying our flesh.. to becoming spiritual.
so eventually she got past the Martha in office, the snobbish girl in office who thought Anne was hopeless, and eventually go to Paris, The Heaven of the Fashion Industry, with her revered boss, Miranda.. See guys, thats what we are going for.. well I guess what I wanted to say ends here.. cos my fingers are tired and I guess you must be getting bored by now..
Well I just used word count and found this entry to be 1300 words in length and took me an hour. I hope my reports can be typed out that fast, 1300 words per hour.. steady.
My hope is, after such a long time, less people will read my blog.
Lets start off with a story.
One day, a super holy Christian named John (same name as the one on Patmos but the similarities end there) was fasting and praying. Easter was drawing near and he wanted 50 people to come to his CG.
Jesus was looking down from Heaven and saw John, His heart warmed up and He decided to award the highest ranking miracle to John. He was gg to jio John for lunch..
So Jesus came to John and said, " Yo Bro, lets go for a meal and a long chit chat!"
John said with a troubled look, "But Jesus, I am fasting. Cannot la..."
This is obviously a fabricated story. This kind of response can only be extracted from a obviously fabricated John with a brain of order "RETARDED FIRST CLASS"... It is equivalent to rejecting the girl of your dreams when she asks you out for a lunch date.. I tell you if I were John, the lunch will nv end..
I will push everything out of my schedule, who cares about the schedule anyway? I will probably throw my damn handphone away..
John missed the whole point... but he was doing all the right things..
From the other end of the Spectrum, the whole point can be missed on the other level.
Connect Group IC (aka CGI) asks, " hey you wanna come for OPM on friday?"
Member replies, "Nope.."
CGI ( super stunned) asked, "but why, I thought your exams are over? you got something on?"
Member replies, " Nope.. jus dun want to go.."
Win liao lor... CGI diam diam errr nothing to say.
Member triumphs.. thinking this is really effective. If it works on the CGI why not try it on the CGL?
Steady sure work one, thought the Member..
What difference is this from John in the story? Do you think on the day you stand before God, your CGL or CGI is gg to be sitting on the Great White Throne? or you think your CGL's name is spelled J-E- S-U-S? God is not man, that He should be mocked..
If you are one year old Christian, I say ok nvm... young..
If you are two year old Christian, I say ok nvm, late bloomer..
If you are three year old Christian, I say nvm, probably needs a kick in the ass..
If you are above that.. What the hell did you attend all those services and cgs for?
I watched a movie that really got me watching.. Christianity is about the relationship.
That is almost becoming a cliche.. but to draw an effective parallel, I recommend anyone who is super free to watch " The Devil wears Prada" and watch Anne Hathaway's character. It depicts a road that transforms a person inside out.
She entered into the fashion magazine industry, a complete idiot.. struggled with the new environment and angry with everything associated with it. Just like the new Christian after maybe a month, sometimes frustrated at why things are changing in life.. Some simply quit at this point.. but Anne Hathaway din.. She said to herself she is gg to beat the odds and not let the frustrations take her life away. (as they claim in the movie, you work for Miranda for a year and you can get a job in any magazine, a million girls would kill for this job). So please, to all the new converts with a new found love for God, don't quit.. (You serve God for a year and you are gg to be blown away)
So Anne got on with the program, learning the names of the various designers and their first names, putting in extra hours of work, working her ass off, keeping her mouth shut. She was putting in all she's got and it was not enough.. why? cos she was focused on getting the job done and looking fwd to waving the office goodbye.. She refused to change her fashion sense, refused to get serious with the industry she was in, refused to take on its identity and basically, refused to change...
Its true, you gotta get your heart into what you are doing..
There was a classic line in the movie when Anne mentioned that she is not interested in changing herself (upgrading her fashion sense) for the job she landed, Nigel (a senior department head in Runway magazine) said to Anne, "so I guess this is what this multi billion industry is about.. Inner Beauty..." That got me laughin.. but it got me thinking.. what am I holding back from God? What am I holding back from my loved ones? With all your mind, all your soul and all your heart...
Alright, lets get on with the program.. so eventually Anne decided to take her job seriously and ASKED Nigel for help to upgrade herself.. Point is if you want something and you don't have it, you really got to ask... just ask for it, whether you get it or not doesn't really matter. (cos most of the time, you get it anyway). Ask and it will be given..
This was the turning point in her career. If she did not decide at this point to change, she be sitting at the same desk pushing papers, buying coffee and getting Miranda's coat and bag thrown on her desk for the next ten long years (if she can even last so long in the first place) and still be dreaming about her big break.. You gotta decide to give it your all, your best shot.. cos time doesn't change a thing, only you can..
so Anne stunned the whole world with her new found interest in Chanels, Jimmy Choos, Gabbanas.. what says you.. You gotta get interested in things like Bible reading, Prayer, OPMs, Service PMs and Pst Ulf screaming China!! India!! and you realise you got 20 billion people to save.. haha..
Then she found herself getting further and further away from her old relationships. Her boyfriend begins to think that they no longer have anything in common. Her friends began to think that she sold her life to Miranda...
Well.. doesn't that sound super familiar? and Nigel contributed another amazing line here, "Let me know when your whole life goes up in smokes, it means that its time for a promotion.."
I am jus pulling a parallel here so I dun mean that you got to blow your whole life up when you become a Christian, we have diversely different values from Nigel in Runway Magazine.. for more info, please refer to Pst Tan's sermon on V.A.L.U.E.S...
But the bible does speak about the circumcision of our lives, about denying our flesh.. to becoming spiritual.
so eventually she got past the Martha in office, the snobbish girl in office who thought Anne was hopeless, and eventually go to Paris, The Heaven of the Fashion Industry, with her revered boss, Miranda.. See guys, thats what we are going for.. well I guess what I wanted to say ends here.. cos my fingers are tired and I guess you must be getting bored by now..
Well I just used word count and found this entry to be 1300 words in length and took me an hour. I hope my reports can be typed out that fast, 1300 words per hour.. steady.
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
I have been busy
Hi Guys, I have been busy. Gg to Bangkok real soon.
Time is limited so keep your eyes fixed on the right thing, Xing!
Yea!
Time is limited so keep your eyes fixed on the right thing, Xing!
Yea!
Monday, January 14, 2008
What I should be concerned about
Recently God's been speaking to me.
He is saying the same thing to me on saturday night, sunday morning and sunday afternoon.
And tonight..
God is showing me that in the things i am gg through in my life, I am not alone.
There are other people also gg thru that and most importantly, God is still there.
God is also telling me that I am giving attention to the wrong things.
God says He got a lot for me but my bag is not big enough to carry.
So I say ok. God, I am gg to get a really big bag.
New wine for the new wineskin.
I am less concerned about my lack, my hurts.
They are painful, nevertheless. But when I look at what I am going to get into when I lift them all up to God, they no longer seem so painful.
When I saw pictures of real children picking off scraps to eat off rusting rubbish truck, I am so blessed that I can consider gg on a diet. I got a choice, to eat or not to eat.
I am less concerned about how people treat me.
They don't treat me like a prince all the time, but I am not gg to dwell on it.
I realise when I fix my eyes on something too hard, I am probably staring at the wrong thing.
I am going to fix my eyes on Jesus.
Oh anyway Kgoon, I am gg to a workshop. Many people are coming. People who are in the business development business.
haha.. I am looking forward to learning a lot!!
He is saying the same thing to me on saturday night, sunday morning and sunday afternoon.
And tonight..
God is showing me that in the things i am gg through in my life, I am not alone.
There are other people also gg thru that and most importantly, God is still there.
God is also telling me that I am giving attention to the wrong things.
God says He got a lot for me but my bag is not big enough to carry.
So I say ok. God, I am gg to get a really big bag.
New wine for the new wineskin.
I am less concerned about my lack, my hurts.
They are painful, nevertheless. But when I look at what I am going to get into when I lift them all up to God, they no longer seem so painful.
When I saw pictures of real children picking off scraps to eat off rusting rubbish truck, I am so blessed that I can consider gg on a diet. I got a choice, to eat or not to eat.
I am less concerned about how people treat me.
They don't treat me like a prince all the time, but I am not gg to dwell on it.
I realise when I fix my eyes on something too hard, I am probably staring at the wrong thing.
I am going to fix my eyes on Jesus.
Oh anyway Kgoon, I am gg to a workshop. Many people are coming. People who are in the business development business.
haha.. I am looking forward to learning a lot!!
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Starting a New Year 2008
Hi Everyone. Its been some time since I blogged here.
Its 2008 and there are some new things to happen this year.
1. Academic Studies
I am looking at the 4th semester in NTU. I am nearing the halfway mark.
This is a semester where I am going to prove something to myself. I am going to set standards high, very high.
2. Spirituality
This is the 4th year ever since I was planted in CHC. This first half of the year, I am going to shed off some flesh. For the flesh is enmity towards the Spirit of God. Thus, the first half of the year, I am looking at constant fasting.
3. CG
I am going to focus. There are some things which I feel I should be leaving to others already.
I cannot be the legs and hands and mouth and everything at the same time.
4. Children Church
There are issues I have to set right with God in my ministry.
5. Blessing
This is the most blessed part of my life for this month.
One thing about me is I love to go overseas.
That is why I would even volunteer to go on a military exercise if it brings me overseas.
This year, I found a job that brings me overseas.
I just checked out the hotel I am going to stay in.
Hotel Windsor Suites, It blows my mind.
I am not a easy person to blow away.
In fact I am a person who is ready to brush off many things people find extraordinary.
However, when I saw the pictures and the area I am going to stay in....
Goodness, I am going to live like an expatriate.
At 22 years old.
I am going to gain some experience and meet real working people.
I am looking forwad to learning some of their relational skills.
Relational Skills that set some above others.
I thank God for the chance.
And my books, I better hit it hard this semester.
Most of all, I want to stay a Christian this year.
As many as are led by the Spirit, these are the sons of God.
Till next time,.... Adieu..
Its 2008 and there are some new things to happen this year.
1. Academic Studies
I am looking at the 4th semester in NTU. I am nearing the halfway mark.
This is a semester where I am going to prove something to myself. I am going to set standards high, very high.
2. Spirituality
This is the 4th year ever since I was planted in CHC. This first half of the year, I am going to shed off some flesh. For the flesh is enmity towards the Spirit of God. Thus, the first half of the year, I am looking at constant fasting.
3. CG
I am going to focus. There are some things which I feel I should be leaving to others already.
I cannot be the legs and hands and mouth and everything at the same time.
4. Children Church
There are issues I have to set right with God in my ministry.
5. Blessing
This is the most blessed part of my life for this month.
One thing about me is I love to go overseas.
That is why I would even volunteer to go on a military exercise if it brings me overseas.
This year, I found a job that brings me overseas.
I just checked out the hotel I am going to stay in.
Hotel Windsor Suites, It blows my mind.
I am not a easy person to blow away.
In fact I am a person who is ready to brush off many things people find extraordinary.
However, when I saw the pictures and the area I am going to stay in....
Goodness, I am going to live like an expatriate.
At 22 years old.
I am going to gain some experience and meet real working people.
I am looking forwad to learning some of their relational skills.
Relational Skills that set some above others.
I thank God for the chance.
And my books, I better hit it hard this semester.
Most of all, I want to stay a Christian this year.
As many as are led by the Spirit, these are the sons of God.
Till next time,.... Adieu..
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