Blogging at 1142 on Tuesday

Going to record my full week here...
The most fully packed week i think for ages...
Friday was the start of it all..
BS FT2 lesson 7 given by Ken to me and Meng at 11a.m.
Badminton and gym with Tsoon Liang from 2 till 4 plus in the afternoon
Was running all over the court trying to hit the shuttlecock.
Tuition from 6 till 7.30pm with my dear Lionel... He is by far my most inquisitive student and the best i have ever taught.. my dear neighbour.
Visitation for about an hour or so with Teacher Esther and oh ya a little nap before tt which caused me to run late for visitation.
Dinner at 9.20 before appearing at RiverWalk to meet Mr Suanh Pi from faraway Burma..

A simple man he was and very cheerful, though his pronounciation of English is slightly different from ours. Found out he like watching cable TV though.. He is gg to join us for CG on friday!! Heard he is gg to malaysia to visit his uncle and aunt next week though. Most prob he is going to come back cos he already got job offer from a construction company. Says he is going to treat me when he starts working. Well i told him i am waiting earnestly. Offering to treat Yuan Xing to dinner.. Wrong Choice... Muahahaha!!!

Then it was saturday.. 8.50 arrived in JW church for CCH, served till 4 with many interesting events in between. Love serving nowadays, very different from earlier days.. Pst Eileen actually noticed me in service (for the worng reasons) while conducting svc and spoke to me at the end of the day at Expo.

U cannot believe how sharp she can be in spotting the mistakes i made. I was so far away and this is what she said.. " You gotta be more gentle with the kids, they are after all jus children, dun be too rough with them, ok?" Oh my, i almost fainted..
I am hearing some laughs now.. hahaha...

Children Church Service was awesome though.. We are on a series with the title of “ Putting God First”. A series that I think even people in main services need.
We sang some old songs in service and I wept.

The song went tis way, “ though none is with me, I still will follow”
The purpose was to tell the kids, “hey dun jus come to church becos of friends, friends come u come, friends dun come u also dun come… Church is about God”

To me though, I felt a different way. I felt God’s presence and His love jus pour down on me.. and I wept…Truly love covers a multitude of sins.. God’s love is a cover over my life.

Although we keep preaching and coming against cheap grace.. but as Christians, u cannot accomplish much without knowing the extent of God’s grace in our lives.
The forgiveness that we do not deserve, the favour we receive which is totally not because we are better than others.. and many many more.. I feel humble people are those who also know the extent of God’s grace in their lives, so they know that it is not their strength which brought them to where they are. It is jus because God loves and He gives.

That is why I cannot stand it when people start saying that backslidden people cannot come back anymore quoting Hebrews 10:26. He spoke like he nv experienced God’s grace… haiz.. talking about a person’s sister somemore and the person was right in front of him… think he needed some grace there and then.. a lot of people who are still in church stayed because God spent so much effort holding us back when we feel like backsliding.. when we thought we are beyond hope, when I thought to myelf, “this time sure die”.. He upholds us and exalts us way above who we are when He reveals to us what we might accomplish for him, our worth in His eyes… Jus feel that the reason that I stayed in church for the short past 3 years is not because I am so loyal and good and strong. It is because God loved me.. I dun noe how to put it… u gotta find out for yourself the depth of His love.. and keep reminding ourselves about it. I know I am going to find out that it is much deeper than what I thought..

yup then after that, service at Expo with Pst Kong preaching about prayers and quiet time and fasting. and also about engaging in the understanding when speaking in tongues.. interesting.. Gotta pray more, and jus soak in the presence of God. yea..

Then after that in discipleship session with Lynn till around 2130
Then stayed back to wait for the SWOT people to end class.
Was sitting outside conference room comfortably with Tracy and talking when Pst Eileen walked by, I greeted her and there she spoke to me..
yea.. thank God i waited.. cos if not, how would i have a chance for Pst to talk to me.. haha.. ok i am a bit ermmm... haha...

Then went to BK with Susan, Tracy, David, Yuncui and several SWOT people at T2. Saw Susan sprayed ketchup on Tracy.. and herself.. lol. And she sharing her life story in BK. Till we caught the last train home.

Sunday met Suanh Pi and Jan and went to service together.
Then off to fellowship at PS, yet again.. ate at Yoshinoya and then jalan jalan till 4. The rest went home and i met Jan for his newspaper interview with Zaobao. Was so stoned by then... then went for Dinner at MFM and then jalan jalan a bit.. met Min Min, Dennis's friend who came for NUS amazing race and my CCH friend, Alex.. then went home and reached around 9pm, managed to catch the last part of National Treasure and then dinner again.

bathed and slept finally.
Sweet sleep for hours.... then Monday got even better. Went to Chinatown to meet cousin who came from China with her husband. I din even know she existed b4 Monday... lol

Went tuition after tuition after tuition after that and was very dead beat. Definitely gg to let go of some when school reopens.. 7 cores and an elective... God pls help me.. but $$ is impt too.. ok.. studies is impt, way more impt..

Tue was great, jus finished making a flyer for the children's outreach.
The first Flyer in my life... a truly heroic attempt i felt it was...
Hope the children are gonna love it.. haha.. and bring lotsa friends..

Had some help though, from more tech savvy friends.
Had been looking for pictures all over the internet to paste on my flyer.
Couldn't find any so I engaged Yuna's help.
She produced an outstanding draft and i nearly went down to NP to look for her to help me draw on the flyer..
Din happen eventually cos my more tech savvy friend found good pics.
Thank God for helpful friends...

From this few days’ experience, I know I need 3 things.. Higher Capacity, Helpful and Capable Friends and God’s Wisdom… Ok.. very long entry le.. time to stop.. share more next time..

Death, Burial, Resurrection..

We all know the story.. of Jesus hanging on a cross and dying for us. And the sunday when He rose from the dead and the victory was won for us.

I know there is another side of the story.
It is about the Father watching Jesus hanging on the cross.
God Almighty Himself, He who formed the heavens and the earth..
watching His Son plead to Him in prayers and suffering on the cross..
and would do nothing.

The pain of the Father watching His Child.
The One least deserved to die... There is entirely no justice in this.
God dying for the sins the people He created committed..

So when God said He would even make a road in the wilderness and rivers in the desert, I believed it because He paid a price so great.
We will not die and we will live. And though there is a desert, plants will grow and flourish. God has shown me so many times He is a God who holds the keys to our hearts and our destinies...

Probably one day God will show me what the Holy Spirit was doing at that time..:-)

Happiness is...

Hi..to who ever is reading this.. I am writing this on blissful morning listening to instrumental music in the background and reading about happiness... On the 17th of July.

Haha.. sounds peaceful right..

On my lap is a book written by Dr A R Bernard, Happiness is..
There is a total of 30 passages, one for every day of the month.

So I came to Day 17 today.. and the page wrote.. Happiness is... Learning not to judge others..

The verse was one we are all so familiar with.
Do not judge, and you will not be judged.
Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned.
Forgive, and you will be forgiven.

We can help to look out for one another but we have absolutely no ability to judge the way God judges. God knows everything and we don't.

The person we need to prosecute and judge everyday of our lives is ourselves. For probably a few minutes everyday..

Then we refrain from doing it to others. Its supposed to make u happier.
Ok.. thats it for today..

On a brighter note.

Well, some happy stuff.. i won a movie voucher in zone meeting, realised its so fun to win, even in stuff like zone meeting games. And yeah I am gg to watch Harry Potter. hahaahaa... yay!!

Anyone interested to watch Harry Potter too?

My God can do all things

The lives we lead is a reflection of our spiritual journey in Christ.
Our lives, especially our private lives, has to be well led.
God uses those who faces up to painful failures in their personal lives, who confront it and become conquerors. Think Jacob, Moses...
This is especially important to those seeking to enter public ministry, esp those who labour in the Word and prayer, of which the latter should precede.

Compare Pst Kong's words and his life.
His life has great progress, he has so much to share with the congregation.
His sermons has great power.

Lets bring it down to a lower level.
To those who desire to be Shepherds, Teachers of the Word or the current In-Thing which is marketplace ministry, character and its integrity has to be number 1 priority. To last through all adversity and stay true to Jesus.

Because as a person progresses in life, personal weaknesses and inadequacies become painfully obvious, even small ones.. You got to suck in all your pride and deal with the issues in life and confront it, no matter what smart noble excuses you gave yourself in the past. Dun siam, no matter what that is. U may think siam better, dun embarrass ourselves.. but think.. better now than later.. when u wanna confront it? when u r already a senior in school? a father? stepped into a workplace? or even worse, in public ministry? (Well, i do really wanna siam contact lenses, but that is another story)

The true question is whether you want to be a powerful Christian or not.
For true power to flow through you by the Spirit and birth forth true fruits, you gotta be more than jus surviving. Conception. Pregnancy, Birth... Only a healthy and attractive woman give birth to healthy strong babies. When you are attractive to the Holy Spirit, He will become intimate with you. Conception. Without this start, nothing is really very fantastic.. How many of us know tt a lady gotta prep herself real well to attract a very good husband?

More so when u are trying to draw near to God..
If not He will love u from a distance, fine.. things will work out jus fine.
But is that all u want?
Or do u want to hold Him tight and get real close? Know Him and know the people He loves to draw near to.

The strength of our personal lives is directly related to our level of anointing. The sensitivity we have to the Voice of the Spirit, our fruitfulness. Our ability to draw near to a place of intimacy with God. Treasure every time you go to service, CG, prayer meetings... and for that matter, go to school, go work, go meet friends, go play, go fellowship, go courses... I admit I often forget to treasure them... esp the "secular ones"..

God, You can do all things...
My flesh and my heart and my plans they fail...
but You are the strength of my heart and my portion forever.