My God

Jesus is my God.

When the going gets tough and reasons fail to suffice,
I know Jesus is the reason above all reasons.

When the things I am doing for God is wearing me out,
I will remember one Person.

When no one or nothing seems to be able to explain what is happening to me,
I will trust Him.

I can only hang on to Him and cling to Him as tightly as i can. Cos i know i mean something to Him.

He has brought me so far, He will bring me further.
But even if not, i will love Him becos He is God and He died for me.

When all else fails and fades away, when my heart is broken and faith is empty, I will love my God and know that He will save.

Children Church

Was jus thinking why i wanted in my heart to help out at Children Church.
I went back to the times when i was in kindergarten.. hhahah
ok When i was a child.. I attended a christian kindergarten.

Everyday before i have my lunch, i say grace.
Well as you can guess, i still remembered hw i said grace during that time.
It was a magical moment when all of us quietened down n said, " Thank you Jesus for the food and drink... the rest i cannot really remember. But that became my grace. Thank You Jesus.

When i had my birthday, my mother will bring a huge cake to school.
My teacher will set it on a table in front of the whole class. I be in front and the class will celebrate my birthday. I nv had a celebration again till i came to church.
And i remembered the simple celebration in school because it was special.

It was Jurong Calvary Kindergarten and i prob will nv forget tt place and tt classroom.

I went to sunday school.. there they told us stories.. and there was a old dusty library where they kept bibles and not much else..i read my first bible there...

Once i missed my bus which was gg to bring me back home from sunday school, 2 teachers who drove past me stopped their car and sent me home. And i told my mother the bus auntie forgot about me. But it was alright. It was one of my first rides in a car!!

Hahaha.. those were e memories from so long ago.. but it was in God's plan that when i went to CCH, it felt natural... like gg back to so long ago.

The services in CCH are awesome. The prescence of God there is strong beyond anything i could imagine before that. I could feel Him everytime i step into the audi so much so i became afraid sometimes. And those messages the teachers preach to the children, i always listened till i cry.

I mean i thought tt would nv happen. Those messages were for kids. But i teared. Cos in those simple words, God was so real.
Those children i know will come to Christ, if not while they are young then when they are like me... Man i hate those damn bombastic words and fanciful theory that some people like to use.
They are wearisome to the core of my spirit. I will always think cut the bullshit man and jus get to the point.

Jesus loves you, u sure that is shallow?
That is e deepest thing that we should know.
He just went to the cross and died for you because He loves you.

So after that i went to children church to help out, could nv get into drama ministry no matter hw i tried... then after that i went helping out at CCH again and again until yup, i am now in it.

Hi KIDS, Teacher Yuan Xing is here!!
haha.. Grrrr....

Different

I found out one thing that life being a Christian really is very different than if u are jus a non believer.

The things u r happy about are different.
The things u r not happy about are different.
Things u r thinking about r different.

gotta start writing some narratives instead of listing down general meanings..
haha.. its harder..
gotta take some time..
next time maybe

Relationships

There are a few things which can stun spiritual growth.
Things like not praying, wilfully sinning against the Word of God, not being open and disciplable, nt reading the Bible daily.

I believe the same things will stun the relationship between people.
Things like nt communicating, wilfully making use of other people and doing things that e person dun like, nt being open about issues and such..

Very soon, there be nothing left.
Death will creep in..
Scarry

Well, i wanna blog quite often this month..

ok.. i've got decisions to make.
Lotsa things to think about.
Lotsa asking and praying to do

Heard my CCH leaders talked about personal development.
How that it could help us give more to serving God in the long run.
It would mean some changes to life as i know it now.
Worth thinking about..
but i think i should start with my guit first.

Secondly, another CCH leader talked about purposes of every relationship of our life.
Very true also.. so we gotta be clear about that in our most important relationships, lest we sin against it or let it run aground.

I asked her to say more cos the conversation was cut short but she said next week.
hmm i wonder if i can afford to let it drag till nxt week. I gotta make some moves.

On the question of faith, on how we confront the mountains of our life and encourage others to do so.. Sometimes we offend people when we challenge them to do difficult things.
And sometimes we back off..
I suggest in the natural we can and should let off here and there sometimes.
But in the spirit, NO!!!
In the spirit we press on..
Because we have to suffer another's displeasure to move them on.
We can afford to lose their liking, their services to us, the happiness of a stormless friendship.
The question is the timing.

On matters which seems beyond our reach, we pray.
tt God gives an opening and we take it by storm.

Finally, God gave the call and we got to be dilligent in wearing the mantle.
We can grow ourselves and grow people.

so God will provide, cos if He doesn't i will stall..
so Jesus.. let it flow...
Let me be tied to You forever..

I think something inside me died today.

Hey Dun believe tt you r nt important to me.
You r nt a replacement for anybody.
The place u occupy is unique and nv was occupied by any other.
If there was another who came close, it died.
Dun jus listen to what people say.
Check it out for yourself Truth.
Have Faith, dun listen to those who nv been there before.
Ask those who's been there before.
Would you believe me if i told you what happens in a girl school?

So Know this.
You r important.. whoever is reading.

Because if u think tt u r nt important, u will treat other people tt way too.
As unimportant.

But You r important, more important than u ever think u r.
Jus think about the impact u make with one expression, one simple act of kindness and encouragement. Or even jus talking about which bus service gets you home faster, or making funny noises about nt getting your calls answered.

So watch what u say and think, cos i think something died inside of me today.
Love... protect... patient... gentle... humble... endures... never fails...

Love, Pursuit and Power

Was in lecture the other day, it was a fluids mechanics lecture.
Was gg to fall into a trance when i heard the lecturer said these words, "Where is the source of the actual power?"

Yeah, yeah.. Prof where is the source of the actual power?
If I want it, then i will have to go the source to draw the power.
My handphone loves the charger, my fan seeks the power socket.
How about me?

One thing i found out about love.. it takes a solid foundation and encouraging words.
Personally, i find encouraging words spoken at the wrong timings totally disgusting.
So speaking encouraging words also got timing one.. and the type of words we choose is important too. Then finally is your relationship with the person. If u dun noe anything about this person, then dun talk like u knew the person for centuries le. Rather, Love ultimately rests on the foundation of understanding. U cannot genuinely love that which u do not understand.
tts why we go service.
tts why we go CG.
tts why we go BS.
Cos He whom u do not understand, u cannot genuinely love..
He whom u do not understand, u cannot communicate with.
Sustained Efforts are needed.
It is not to bring results.
It is a constant proof of our love and pursuit.
Wheni keep doing something regularly, it is not because i know it will bring results.
I can bring it to results but not necessary so..
I will plant the seed, I will water the seeds, But GOD gives the increase.
so it is not up to us to say its enough.
Its up to the wisdom of God to tell us when to stop.
By the way, what applies to God applies to people too.
Dun u love people to praise, worship and talk about what u doing.. haha...

ok... long complicated entry of my thoughts.
If u know me, u know what i talking about.