Whenever I feel like cursing people I love and wished they were dead, I remind my soul that God is in control and that He loves all of us.
There were times when I wished God just loved ME alone and no other but its not true...
The wish is true though...
So I keep my mouth shut and wait... I know its my fault most of the time but I always wished it were somebody else's fault. Because why does it always have to be me?
I am not kind nor loving nor very holy, so the next time things start to piss me off, know that I am always pleading the blood of Jesus over my soul so that I will not blow up and eat people up..
Haha... now you know how evil I am.. wonder how many will read this... I think people who read this already know this.. so its ok..
Monday, March 3, 2008
Number 51
Then you shall know that I am the LORD, when I have dealt with you for My name’s sake, not according to your wicked ways nor according to your corrupt doings, O house of Israel,” says the Lord GOD.’”
God lets His people know by experience and by life that the rise and fall of nations, churches, powers, groups and even individuals are in His control. No man holds the power nor key to raise or put down, kill or revive, give or take away except by God's hands.
Then you shall know who to seek in times of trouble, in times of distress, you shall run to the LORD your God because He shall raise you up. In the event He decides to kill, no man can escape.
Then you shall confess with your tongue, your soul and entire being that He is Lord and that nothing you can do will change that.
Then you will realise He loves you and that nothing that happened ever happened without Him.
Then when you fall you will know that no man except Him will raise you up because He has claimed your life for Himself.
Then you will know in your soul that everything is working for good in your life.
Because He has called you. Whether you realise it or not is immaterial.
He will make sure you find Him.
For if He has the power to bring empires and entire generations to their kneels, then He will know how to bring you into His embrace. Trust Him, He will not miss nor will He have one flaw in His plan.
Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by your name; You are Mine.
If My people, who are called by My name, will humble themselves and pray and seek My face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land.
God lets His people know by experience and by life that the rise and fall of nations, churches, powers, groups and even individuals are in His control. No man holds the power nor key to raise or put down, kill or revive, give or take away except by God's hands.
Then you shall know who to seek in times of trouble, in times of distress, you shall run to the LORD your God because He shall raise you up. In the event He decides to kill, no man can escape.
Then you shall confess with your tongue, your soul and entire being that He is Lord and that nothing you can do will change that.
Then you will realise He loves you and that nothing that happened ever happened without Him.
Then when you fall you will know that no man except Him will raise you up because He has claimed your life for Himself.
Then you will know in your soul that everything is working for good in your life.
Because He has called you. Whether you realise it or not is immaterial.
He will make sure you find Him.
For if He has the power to bring empires and entire generations to their kneels, then He will know how to bring you into His embrace. Trust Him, He will not miss nor will He have one flaw in His plan.
Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by your name; You are Mine.
If My people, who are called by My name, will humble themselves and pray and seek My face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land.
Philippians 3:8-11
Philippians 3:8-11 (New King James Version)
8 Yet indeed I also count all things loss for the excellence of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord, for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and count them as rubbish, that I may gain Christ
9 and be found in Him, not having my own righteousness, which is from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ, the righteousness which is from God by faith;
10 that I may know Him and the power of His resurrection, and the fellowship of His sufferings, being conformed to His death,
11 if, by any means, I may attain to the resurrection from the dead.
8 Yet indeed I also count all things loss for the excellence of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord, for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and count them as rubbish, that I may gain Christ
9 and be found in Him, not having my own righteousness, which is from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ, the righteousness which is from God by faith;
10 that I may know Him and the power of His resurrection, and the fellowship of His sufferings, being conformed to His death,
11 if, by any means, I may attain to the resurrection from the dead.
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Its Truly been a LONG TIME..
Right.. its been some time since I updated.
My hope is, after such a long time, less people will read my blog.
Lets start off with a story.
One day, a super holy Christian named John (same name as the one on Patmos but the similarities end there) was fasting and praying. Easter was drawing near and he wanted 50 people to come to his CG.
Jesus was looking down from Heaven and saw John, His heart warmed up and He decided to award the highest ranking miracle to John. He was gg to jio John for lunch..
So Jesus came to John and said, " Yo Bro, lets go for a meal and a long chit chat!"
John said with a troubled look, "But Jesus, I am fasting. Cannot la..."
This is obviously a fabricated story. This kind of response can only be extracted from a obviously fabricated John with a brain of order "RETARDED FIRST CLASS"... It is equivalent to rejecting the girl of your dreams when she asks you out for a lunch date.. I tell you if I were John, the lunch will nv end..
I will push everything out of my schedule, who cares about the schedule anyway? I will probably throw my damn handphone away..
John missed the whole point... but he was doing all the right things..
From the other end of the Spectrum, the whole point can be missed on the other level.
Connect Group IC (aka CGI) asks, " hey you wanna come for OPM on friday?"
Member replies, "Nope.."
CGI ( super stunned) asked, "but why, I thought your exams are over? you got something on?"
Member replies, " Nope.. jus dun want to go.."
Win liao lor... CGI diam diam errr nothing to say.
Member triumphs.. thinking this is really effective. If it works on the CGI why not try it on the CGL?
Steady sure work one, thought the Member..
What difference is this from John in the story? Do you think on the day you stand before God, your CGL or CGI is gg to be sitting on the Great White Throne? or you think your CGL's name is spelled J-E- S-U-S? God is not man, that He should be mocked..
If you are one year old Christian, I say ok nvm... young..
If you are two year old Christian, I say ok nvm, late bloomer..
If you are three year old Christian, I say nvm, probably needs a kick in the ass..
If you are above that.. What the hell did you attend all those services and cgs for?
I watched a movie that really got me watching.. Christianity is about the relationship.
That is almost becoming a cliche.. but to draw an effective parallel, I recommend anyone who is super free to watch " The Devil wears Prada" and watch Anne Hathaway's character. It depicts a road that transforms a person inside out.
She entered into the fashion magazine industry, a complete idiot.. struggled with the new environment and angry with everything associated with it. Just like the new Christian after maybe a month, sometimes frustrated at why things are changing in life.. Some simply quit at this point.. but Anne Hathaway din.. She said to herself she is gg to beat the odds and not let the frustrations take her life away. (as they claim in the movie, you work for Miranda for a year and you can get a job in any magazine, a million girls would kill for this job). So please, to all the new converts with a new found love for God, don't quit.. (You serve God for a year and you are gg to be blown away)
So Anne got on with the program, learning the names of the various designers and their first names, putting in extra hours of work, working her ass off, keeping her mouth shut. She was putting in all she's got and it was not enough.. why? cos she was focused on getting the job done and looking fwd to waving the office goodbye.. She refused to change her fashion sense, refused to get serious with the industry she was in, refused to take on its identity and basically, refused to change...
Its true, you gotta get your heart into what you are doing..
There was a classic line in the movie when Anne mentioned that she is not interested in changing herself (upgrading her fashion sense) for the job she landed, Nigel (a senior department head in Runway magazine) said to Anne, "so I guess this is what this multi billion industry is about.. Inner Beauty..." That got me laughin.. but it got me thinking.. what am I holding back from God? What am I holding back from my loved ones? With all your mind, all your soul and all your heart...
Alright, lets get on with the program.. so eventually Anne decided to take her job seriously and ASKED Nigel for help to upgrade herself.. Point is if you want something and you don't have it, you really got to ask... just ask for it, whether you get it or not doesn't really matter. (cos most of the time, you get it anyway). Ask and it will be given..
This was the turning point in her career. If she did not decide at this point to change, she be sitting at the same desk pushing papers, buying coffee and getting Miranda's coat and bag thrown on her desk for the next ten long years (if she can even last so long in the first place) and still be dreaming about her big break.. You gotta decide to give it your all, your best shot.. cos time doesn't change a thing, only you can..
so Anne stunned the whole world with her new found interest in Chanels, Jimmy Choos, Gabbanas.. what says you.. You gotta get interested in things like Bible reading, Prayer, OPMs, Service PMs and Pst Ulf screaming China!! India!! and you realise you got 20 billion people to save.. haha..
Then she found herself getting further and further away from her old relationships. Her boyfriend begins to think that they no longer have anything in common. Her friends began to think that she sold her life to Miranda...
Well.. doesn't that sound super familiar? and Nigel contributed another amazing line here, "Let me know when your whole life goes up in smokes, it means that its time for a promotion.."
I am jus pulling a parallel here so I dun mean that you got to blow your whole life up when you become a Christian, we have diversely different values from Nigel in Runway Magazine.. for more info, please refer to Pst Tan's sermon on V.A.L.U.E.S...
But the bible does speak about the circumcision of our lives, about denying our flesh.. to becoming spiritual.
so eventually she got past the Martha in office, the snobbish girl in office who thought Anne was hopeless, and eventually go to Paris, The Heaven of the Fashion Industry, with her revered boss, Miranda.. See guys, thats what we are going for.. well I guess what I wanted to say ends here.. cos my fingers are tired and I guess you must be getting bored by now..
Well I just used word count and found this entry to be 1300 words in length and took me an hour. I hope my reports can be typed out that fast, 1300 words per hour.. steady.
My hope is, after such a long time, less people will read my blog.
Lets start off with a story.
One day, a super holy Christian named John (same name as the one on Patmos but the similarities end there) was fasting and praying. Easter was drawing near and he wanted 50 people to come to his CG.
Jesus was looking down from Heaven and saw John, His heart warmed up and He decided to award the highest ranking miracle to John. He was gg to jio John for lunch..
So Jesus came to John and said, " Yo Bro, lets go for a meal and a long chit chat!"
John said with a troubled look, "But Jesus, I am fasting. Cannot la..."
This is obviously a fabricated story. This kind of response can only be extracted from a obviously fabricated John with a brain of order "RETARDED FIRST CLASS"... It is equivalent to rejecting the girl of your dreams when she asks you out for a lunch date.. I tell you if I were John, the lunch will nv end..
I will push everything out of my schedule, who cares about the schedule anyway? I will probably throw my damn handphone away..
John missed the whole point... but he was doing all the right things..
From the other end of the Spectrum, the whole point can be missed on the other level.
Connect Group IC (aka CGI) asks, " hey you wanna come for OPM on friday?"
Member replies, "Nope.."
CGI ( super stunned) asked, "but why, I thought your exams are over? you got something on?"
Member replies, " Nope.. jus dun want to go.."
Win liao lor... CGI diam diam errr nothing to say.
Member triumphs.. thinking this is really effective. If it works on the CGI why not try it on the CGL?
Steady sure work one, thought the Member..
What difference is this from John in the story? Do you think on the day you stand before God, your CGL or CGI is gg to be sitting on the Great White Throne? or you think your CGL's name is spelled J-E- S-U-S? God is not man, that He should be mocked..
If you are one year old Christian, I say ok nvm... young..
If you are two year old Christian, I say ok nvm, late bloomer..
If you are three year old Christian, I say nvm, probably needs a kick in the ass..
If you are above that.. What the hell did you attend all those services and cgs for?
I watched a movie that really got me watching.. Christianity is about the relationship.
That is almost becoming a cliche.. but to draw an effective parallel, I recommend anyone who is super free to watch " The Devil wears Prada" and watch Anne Hathaway's character. It depicts a road that transforms a person inside out.
She entered into the fashion magazine industry, a complete idiot.. struggled with the new environment and angry with everything associated with it. Just like the new Christian after maybe a month, sometimes frustrated at why things are changing in life.. Some simply quit at this point.. but Anne Hathaway din.. She said to herself she is gg to beat the odds and not let the frustrations take her life away. (as they claim in the movie, you work for Miranda for a year and you can get a job in any magazine, a million girls would kill for this job). So please, to all the new converts with a new found love for God, don't quit.. (You serve God for a year and you are gg to be blown away)
So Anne got on with the program, learning the names of the various designers and their first names, putting in extra hours of work, working her ass off, keeping her mouth shut. She was putting in all she's got and it was not enough.. why? cos she was focused on getting the job done and looking fwd to waving the office goodbye.. She refused to change her fashion sense, refused to get serious with the industry she was in, refused to take on its identity and basically, refused to change...
Its true, you gotta get your heart into what you are doing..
There was a classic line in the movie when Anne mentioned that she is not interested in changing herself (upgrading her fashion sense) for the job she landed, Nigel (a senior department head in Runway magazine) said to Anne, "so I guess this is what this multi billion industry is about.. Inner Beauty..." That got me laughin.. but it got me thinking.. what am I holding back from God? What am I holding back from my loved ones? With all your mind, all your soul and all your heart...
Alright, lets get on with the program.. so eventually Anne decided to take her job seriously and ASKED Nigel for help to upgrade herself.. Point is if you want something and you don't have it, you really got to ask... just ask for it, whether you get it or not doesn't really matter. (cos most of the time, you get it anyway). Ask and it will be given..
This was the turning point in her career. If she did not decide at this point to change, she be sitting at the same desk pushing papers, buying coffee and getting Miranda's coat and bag thrown on her desk for the next ten long years (if she can even last so long in the first place) and still be dreaming about her big break.. You gotta decide to give it your all, your best shot.. cos time doesn't change a thing, only you can..
so Anne stunned the whole world with her new found interest in Chanels, Jimmy Choos, Gabbanas.. what says you.. You gotta get interested in things like Bible reading, Prayer, OPMs, Service PMs and Pst Ulf screaming China!! India!! and you realise you got 20 billion people to save.. haha..
Then she found herself getting further and further away from her old relationships. Her boyfriend begins to think that they no longer have anything in common. Her friends began to think that she sold her life to Miranda...
Well.. doesn't that sound super familiar? and Nigel contributed another amazing line here, "Let me know when your whole life goes up in smokes, it means that its time for a promotion.."
I am jus pulling a parallel here so I dun mean that you got to blow your whole life up when you become a Christian, we have diversely different values from Nigel in Runway Magazine.. for more info, please refer to Pst Tan's sermon on V.A.L.U.E.S...
But the bible does speak about the circumcision of our lives, about denying our flesh.. to becoming spiritual.
so eventually she got past the Martha in office, the snobbish girl in office who thought Anne was hopeless, and eventually go to Paris, The Heaven of the Fashion Industry, with her revered boss, Miranda.. See guys, thats what we are going for.. well I guess what I wanted to say ends here.. cos my fingers are tired and I guess you must be getting bored by now..
Well I just used word count and found this entry to be 1300 words in length and took me an hour. I hope my reports can be typed out that fast, 1300 words per hour.. steady.
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
I have been busy
Hi Guys, I have been busy. Gg to Bangkok real soon.
Time is limited so keep your eyes fixed on the right thing, Xing!
Yea!
Time is limited so keep your eyes fixed on the right thing, Xing!
Yea!
Monday, January 14, 2008
What I should be concerned about
Recently God's been speaking to me.
He is saying the same thing to me on saturday night, sunday morning and sunday afternoon.
And tonight..
God is showing me that in the things i am gg through in my life, I am not alone.
There are other people also gg thru that and most importantly, God is still there.
God is also telling me that I am giving attention to the wrong things.
God says He got a lot for me but my bag is not big enough to carry.
So I say ok. God, I am gg to get a really big bag.
New wine for the new wineskin.
I am less concerned about my lack, my hurts.
They are painful, nevertheless. But when I look at what I am going to get into when I lift them all up to God, they no longer seem so painful.
When I saw pictures of real children picking off scraps to eat off rusting rubbish truck, I am so blessed that I can consider gg on a diet. I got a choice, to eat or not to eat.
I am less concerned about how people treat me.
They don't treat me like a prince all the time, but I am not gg to dwell on it.
I realise when I fix my eyes on something too hard, I am probably staring at the wrong thing.
I am going to fix my eyes on Jesus.
Oh anyway Kgoon, I am gg to a workshop. Many people are coming. People who are in the business development business.
haha.. I am looking forward to learning a lot!!
He is saying the same thing to me on saturday night, sunday morning and sunday afternoon.
And tonight..
God is showing me that in the things i am gg through in my life, I am not alone.
There are other people also gg thru that and most importantly, God is still there.
God is also telling me that I am giving attention to the wrong things.
God says He got a lot for me but my bag is not big enough to carry.
So I say ok. God, I am gg to get a really big bag.
New wine for the new wineskin.
I am less concerned about my lack, my hurts.
They are painful, nevertheless. But when I look at what I am going to get into when I lift them all up to God, they no longer seem so painful.
When I saw pictures of real children picking off scraps to eat off rusting rubbish truck, I am so blessed that I can consider gg on a diet. I got a choice, to eat or not to eat.
I am less concerned about how people treat me.
They don't treat me like a prince all the time, but I am not gg to dwell on it.
I realise when I fix my eyes on something too hard, I am probably staring at the wrong thing.
I am going to fix my eyes on Jesus.
Oh anyway Kgoon, I am gg to a workshop. Many people are coming. People who are in the business development business.
haha.. I am looking forward to learning a lot!!
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Starting a New Year 2008
Hi Everyone. Its been some time since I blogged here.
Its 2008 and there are some new things to happen this year.
1. Academic Studies
I am looking at the 4th semester in NTU. I am nearing the halfway mark.
This is a semester where I am going to prove something to myself. I am going to set standards high, very high.
2. Spirituality
This is the 4th year ever since I was planted in CHC. This first half of the year, I am going to shed off some flesh. For the flesh is enmity towards the Spirit of God. Thus, the first half of the year, I am looking at constant fasting.
3. CG
I am going to focus. There are some things which I feel I should be leaving to others already.
I cannot be the legs and hands and mouth and everything at the same time.
4. Children Church
There are issues I have to set right with God in my ministry.
5. Blessing
This is the most blessed part of my life for this month.
One thing about me is I love to go overseas.
That is why I would even volunteer to go on a military exercise if it brings me overseas.
This year, I found a job that brings me overseas.
I just checked out the hotel I am going to stay in.
Hotel Windsor Suites, It blows my mind.
I am not a easy person to blow away.
In fact I am a person who is ready to brush off many things people find extraordinary.
However, when I saw the pictures and the area I am going to stay in....
Goodness, I am going to live like an expatriate.
At 22 years old.
I am going to gain some experience and meet real working people.
I am looking forwad to learning some of their relational skills.
Relational Skills that set some above others.
I thank God for the chance.
And my books, I better hit it hard this semester.
Most of all, I want to stay a Christian this year.
As many as are led by the Spirit, these are the sons of God.
Till next time,.... Adieu..
Its 2008 and there are some new things to happen this year.
1. Academic Studies
I am looking at the 4th semester in NTU. I am nearing the halfway mark.
This is a semester where I am going to prove something to myself. I am going to set standards high, very high.
2. Spirituality
This is the 4th year ever since I was planted in CHC. This first half of the year, I am going to shed off some flesh. For the flesh is enmity towards the Spirit of God. Thus, the first half of the year, I am looking at constant fasting.
3. CG
I am going to focus. There are some things which I feel I should be leaving to others already.
I cannot be the legs and hands and mouth and everything at the same time.
4. Children Church
There are issues I have to set right with God in my ministry.
5. Blessing
This is the most blessed part of my life for this month.
One thing about me is I love to go overseas.
That is why I would even volunteer to go on a military exercise if it brings me overseas.
This year, I found a job that brings me overseas.
I just checked out the hotel I am going to stay in.
Hotel Windsor Suites, It blows my mind.
I am not a easy person to blow away.
In fact I am a person who is ready to brush off many things people find extraordinary.
However, when I saw the pictures and the area I am going to stay in....
Goodness, I am going to live like an expatriate.
At 22 years old.
I am going to gain some experience and meet real working people.
I am looking forwad to learning some of their relational skills.
Relational Skills that set some above others.
I thank God for the chance.
And my books, I better hit it hard this semester.
Most of all, I want to stay a Christian this year.
As many as are led by the Spirit, these are the sons of God.
Till next time,.... Adieu..
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