An old part of me is coming back..

Jus came back from CCH dicipleship mtg by Lynn...
Was on the way back from expo in Xiwei's car when I heard Susan say she got 6 new kids come to church this week...

i mean.. Praise the Lord for those 6 kids.. but why not my group..
i hate to lose.. i hate to not be leading the pack.. n e fact that her group was Esther's din help..
ROAR....

The part of me with the fighting spirit came out man and i am so jealous.. i am going mad.. n i am gg to do something about tt.. i am gg to beat that... let her start the race i alr nt very happy le.. Arrrrrghhh

I need to have a pioneering spirit.. she having exams somemore.. and she is so young.. And obviously she did something right and 6 kids in 2 days is simply supernatural..

Something in me is bursting man.. and today jus kanna dua by my friend.

I pray i wake up every morning with this frustration and that it gets stronger and stronger.. Remember the humiliation... by someone younger, more busy and more faith..

Arrrrrrghhhh....!!!!! God!!!!
I am burning.. I know You have the way.. I jus wanna know how You want us to do it..

My soul cannot rest... its that kind of feeling tt drives u crazy..